“Well behaved women seldom make history.”
Like many women, I have spent most of my life trying to get people to like me. There's nothing wrong with wanting love and admiration from those around me, but at some point my need for acceptance began to dictate and control what I did and how I lived. There have been countless times my heart felt a desire, and I pushed it away because I knew it would be received as “strange” or “weird”. Untold opportunities to fulfill my purpose have drifted by because I was afraid. Afraid to get a YouTube channel because people wouldn't think I was “pretty” enough. Afraid to write a blog or a book because people would think my ideas were wrong or worse - irrelevant and boring. Afraid to be myself in all my wild, untamed glory because people would judge and eventually reject me.
I've come a long way since those days, but I still feel the emotions tug me back as it whispers thoughts of negativity and fear. It creeps up any time I feel an urge to start something new, to step into the unknown. I've learned that pushing past that block is always worth it, and often find great rewards waiting on the other side. Still, no matter how far I stretch myself and grow the fear always catches up with me when it's time to make a choice. Recently however, I came to realize that it's okay if they don't like me. Not everyone will agree with my decisions or my opinions. Speaking my mind, being authentic and unleashing my inner goddess won't always be embraced. Many people will give me strange glances and gossip behind my back, but I don't do it for them. I write to inspire the girls like me, sitting in their rooms wishing they were “normal” because no one understands them. I write and I speak and I move through the world without being censored because there are untold masses of women of all ages and all cultures whose souls are also screaming to be released. There have been wild women that inspired me in my journey to awaken and embrace my calling, and I in turn hope to do the same for those who need it.
If you are at a crossroads, paralyzed with inaction because your family, friends, coworkers, etc won't approve. If you feel a calling to rise above and follow your heart, but the thought of losing support is too much to bear, just remember that the movers and shakers don't make history by being tame. The men and women that have paved the way before us, were often scrutinized and ostracized by the masses, but their inspiring words and actions lit a fire in the oppressed and the restless minority who seek more from life than living and dying.
Just a small handful of men and women who never let fear of rejection stop them from doing what was necessary. Neither should you. Go out and live your dreams, reach your goals and seek your desires, and ignore those who try to pull you down. The future will thank you for it.
P.S. - When I feel like fear is keeping me from embracing my beautiful self...I recite poems from Maya Angelou. So, here you go, enjoy!